I seem to be experiencing an identity shift. My destructive cellular memories have healed, so there's a bit of a void left that hasn't yet been filled. Who I am is not who I was but neither is it yet who I'm going to be. LOL!

It feels like a void. Blah!

I guess there's a process of letting go that I'm not entirely conscious of but which is creating some grief? I've experienced this before, when I've been working on healing something, it clears, and I have a week or so of disorientation during which I don't quite recognize myself. It always passes, but usually feels like it never will.

And here I am, again. Lovely!

One of the other coaches came up with an amazing idea and shared it on our most recent conference call. He decided to test to find out how many destructive cellular memories he had left to heal. He then created a healing code to heal all of them and it worked!

I did the same. I discovered that 3 1/2 years ago, when I started this work, I had 576 cellular memories that needed to be healed. After the conference call, I tested that I had 27 left. It took me two days to heal them, and I can't tell you how excited I am about it!

On the other hand, I am now into day 3 of a healing response/clearing that I can't claim to enjoy!

Oh, well! I'll be done with that eventually :).

And then, I can get on with my plan to infuse my cells with positive, life-enhancing memories!

I have a very strong sense of spiritual connection. Not just to God, but also to nature, etc. I love to go outside and sit on my porch and feel the breeze, soak up the sun and connect to my trees. When I do that, I feel loved!

But a couple of days ago, I went outside and was so focused on the problems in a relationship that I couldn't feel anything. No sense of connection!

Well, I was talking to another healing coach today, and she suggested that I have some issues to heal around losing myself in a relationship and that what happened the other day is an example of that issue. So that's what I worked on, and I feel SO much better! Peaceful, grounded, centered, and connected. Serene, even!

This work is SO powerful!

I have been working on some interesting things lately--most recently, negative thinking and negative expectations.

But I got sidelined a little bit yesterday. So much so that I had little motivation to do my healing codes practice. I had to make myself do it, and when I did, I didn't even say the prayer. Yikes! "What happened?", you ask?

Well, someone I care about very much hurt me this weekend. Enough for me to consider not being in the relationship anymore.

But I realized that there is spiritual growth ahead for me that this situation is meant to inspire: being able to keep my heart open, to stay emotionally connected and compassionate even if this person's fear of love has a negative impact on me. I just did a code on that very goal!

Of course, I laughed when I first realized that this was the lesson, because it seems utterly impossible!! But now, I'm kind of excited about it!

Wouldn't it be cool to be able to be like that?

Well, we'll see...